EXPECTATIONS, depicts the struggle between what we desire for ourselves and our familial obligations. This is personified by Chris and Matt Taylor, identical twins, who are trying to win their overbearing father’s approval and acquire their trust funds. Their best friend and roommate, Aiden O’Boyle, left his family behind in Ireland to pursue a career in dance.
Aiden: You’d think I wasn’t afraid of anything. I came to America with a college scholarship and $300 seven years ago. Knowing no one and nothing much except for dance, one might say it was a fearless thing to do. That wasn’t scary. It was necessary. Actually, staying would’ve been far more terrifying for me. Here I don’t need to worry about my safety. I make more here in a month than the farm in Ireland pulled in a year.
Fear is a funny word. It means something different for every person. No two people will have the same fears for the same reasons. So many people have a paralyzing fear of being on stage. That comes naturally to me. Public speaking? I do it every day when I teach. It’s not scary, amazing. That’s the only word to describe how it feels to watch someone else feel the magic of dance.
For that reason, sometimes I don’t know what I love more, the teaching or the dancing, which is again something I never thought I’d contemplate. Think about the power teachers hold. The ability to let the student into the world of their passion. Every victory for a student is also one for the instructor. That’s why the connection between teacher and the student can be so strong. But, there’s also a distance, which I’m all too glad to keep.
Connection… doesn’t come so easily for me. Despite making close friends with Chris and Matt, or as close as you could be with two people who don’t know your birth name, I still have so many secrets. Lately, I’ve wanted to break the wall, at least with Chris. I almost did the other night, but instead we fought. The truth is THIS is what I’m afraid of. Terrified, actually. The last time I opened up was to my family and…we know how that turned out. It just gets lonely behind the wall, ya know?
What are you most afraid of? Why?
I'll go first. I'm afraid every time I go to push publish on this blog. It's putting something that's very important to me up for public scrutiny.
As always, I welcome your thoughts!